Blowing in the Wind

sunset snow farmChange is constant, especially for a curious woman in her 20s. I have grown accustomed to transitions whether they are jobs, relationships, or homes. I have been floating around the world like a seed in the breeze trying to plant myself wherever I go. Now, I am aware that the choices I make affect many people, and also affect the course of my life. Like the willow tree I want to be rooted in the Earth, yet adaptable and resilient when a strong wind blows.

swirlsKnowing when to steer the ship and when to take a break is like a dance. How much control can I give up without losing sight of my goals? I am finding a healthy balance between blowing in the wind vs. setting strong intentions. I am beginning to ask myself, “What do I really want?” Even in this very moment, do I want to be writing at midnight when I have to work in the morning? Yes, as a matter of fact, this is very nourishing to my creativity. So, I’ll catch up on sleep tomorrow.

Recently, a combination of the cold winds in Savoy and my desire to be closer to my community have carried me back down to the valley I know so well. I have nestled into the cozy home of the Wood family which is powered by solar panels and surrounded by forest. I am close to two really important things: the bike path and my family.

spring fedI am allowing myself to indulge in the simple pleasures of life: hearty squash stews, warm cider, and good company. I find that evenings in solitude drinking hot tea and reading a book are just as important as a night out on the town. The cool weather is pulling me inside where my yoga mat patiently waits to be rolled out for a sweet nurturing practice. The shorter day light hours are insisting a mid day run or walk will build inner strength and warmth for the long night ahead.

I give thanks for the ever-flowing love and abundance that comes my way. I give thanks for the energy and nutrients stored in roots and squash to nourish my body this winter. I give thanks for the endless opportunities to explore all sides of being human with you all. I give thanks to all the spirits I have encountered on the land who have guided me to open my heart to new ways of being.

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Letting Go like the Leaves

fire leaves Orange Leaves Falling in Autumn Breeze

Remind us to let go

the pathCan we make the transition as elegantly as the seasons?

What do we want to pack up and carry with us all winter?

What can we leave behind for the Earth to recycle?

Big questions to ponder on those late nights canning applesauce…

applesauceRed, Yellow, Orange, Brown

Golden Light dancing on our windowsills

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Frost or dew? Both will dissipate as the morning sun heats up the cooling Earth

frosty leavesCan you hear the Raven cawing?

Can you smell the garlic roasting with the roots?

Can you see the spiders weaving their webs?

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Can you taste the mulling cider?

Can you touch the awe of Autumn in New England?

photo by Leah Rose

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Swimming Ashore to Catch my Breath

sunny fieldAugust is the true test for any gardener. Everything happens at once- the fruits ripen, the basil begins to flower, and the weeds loyally pop up everywhere. It is the time when the dehydrator is backed up with herbs, flowers, and fruit. It is a time when the kitchen smells of pickling spices and vinegar. It is a time when we compete with the fruit flies for our over ripe peaches on the counter begging to be put up for the winter.

tableThe past two weeks my plate has been full of preparation for farm to table dinners: Starseed’s Annual Fundraiser and NOFA’s Summer Conference. Starseed hosted its first farm to table benefit dinner outside under the tent. To start we served a garden salad topped with nasturtiums, pickled dilly beans, a bread and cheese platter, pesto, cabbage rolls stuffed with quinoa and gouda, and zucchini ribbons. For dessert we served raw vanilla ice cream and blueberry pies.

piepies!Thanks to Bread Euphoria, Monterey Chévre, and Sidehill Farm for the local products! I am grateful for all the cooks and harvesters, especially of those wild low bush blueberries. Both events were great successes because they brought people together to share farm fresh ingredients prepared with love.

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Finally after weeks of running my engine on full throttle, the full moon in Aquarius pulled on my body to go outside and lay on the Earth. “Slow down!” she said. All of those food projects and social commitments can wait. Take a break, rest a while, and get grounded. Focus on the abundance surrounding you and replace it with any beliefs coming from lack or scarcity.

With every action I take throughout the day whether making salves and tinctures, or clipping people into the zip line at Zoar, I ask myself: “What is the driving force behind this action? Is it love or fear? Am I present or am I focusing on the future? How can I slow down and see the beauty in each moment?”

river flowI like to think of the river metaphor. Are we navigating the river skillfully by surrendering to the current or are we paddling upstream? I admit I’ve been resisting surrender and paddling upstream recently, hence no blog post for over a month. I remembered last night during the Full Moon to swim ashore and rest for a while until I am ready to plunge back in and go with the flow.

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Calendula Flower for Salve

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Today the flow has taken me to the (flow)ers. It is a flower day on the Biodynamic Seed Calendar: http://www.steinerbooks.org/Books/BookDetail.aspx?productID=322504

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Pollen-loaded Bumble Bee in Tulsi Holy Basil

I harvested calendula, which is wonderful for making healing salves for cuts, scrapes and dry skin. I also made an oil infusion of St. Johnswort flowers, which is anti-anxiety and anti-depression. Chamomile flowers are drying for a relaxing tea. Nasturtiums brighten up the salad bowl, and sunflowers are blooming with all their glory. The bees like flower days, too!

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New Moon brings New Dwellings

yurt teamToday the New Moon brought several new structures to Starseed. A 20-foot yurt arrived from Two Girls Farm in NH and we set it up in about four hours. The round space made from local saplings and hand-sewn fabric will be where we offer yoga, meditation, council meetings, and celebrations.

laticespaceshipthe roofalmost doneBlake led us in a much needed yoga class and Satyena facilitated a smudging ceremony to welcome the yurt to the land. As she played the Tibetan singing bowl, a big black bear appeared on the site, probably feeding on the ripening wild blueberries.

team effortAfter a rich breakfast of biscuits (leftover from strawberry shortcake), gravy, eggs, and strawberry smoothies, we headed over to our newly acquired beehive. Jo and Blake opened the hive to remove excess wax so it doesn’t seal up completely. Now, I have some beeswax to make a comfrey, calendula, plantain salve. A few feet from the hive, I have never been so close to so many bees. None of us were stung and we spent the rest of the day humming to honor the honeybees.

hive checkMid-day Jo and Aravinda met with lawyers to close on the house they are purchasing across the street from Starseed. A beautifully constructed home filled with love… another new structure at Starseed. We’re growing, rather quickly, and I’m confident everything will work out because each of us is living from our hearts with good intentions.

chamomile heartWe raised our glasses of champagne toasting in honor of all we’ve learned in the past, gratitude for the present, and excitement for a bright future! Cheers to new growth and opportunity by saying YES!

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Busy as the Bees

home sweet homeAnother rainy day forces me to stay inside, make soup, bake cookies, and slow down. The month of June is flying by as we are busy as the bees out here at Starseed. Change is happening so fast these days. Old structures and habits are breaking down making room for new positive change in the world. Starseed is one of many places all across the globe that is transforming. I am really hopeful to be part of such a special project underway.

swarm10,000 new beings have made Starseed their home- Honeybees! We welcomed them last weekend and they are already making their rounds to the flower gardens. Their hive is nestled into the tree line beside our newly planted high-bush blueberries.

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First, we added sugar water (or  you can use honey) to the hive to give the bees something to start with and draw them into their new home.

queen beeThen we took out the queen who was in her own compartment. The worker bees will eventually chew their way into her compartment and hopefully accept her as their queen.

welcome beesAll the other bees joined her in the hive by swarming and within a few hours, they all settled down. Home sweet home! I can hardly wait for honey this fall.

bees and bluesHoneybees  travel up to a few miles pollinating our flowers and food sources as they go. About 40% of our food supply relies on bees for pollination such as fruits, nuts, and some vegetables. Non-organic pesticides are killing off our bees causing “colony collapse.” Watch the film, “Queen of the Sun” for more information about the importance of honeybees for our survival. Not to mention, the divinely sweet, nutritious, medicinal, anti-microbial substance they create- Honey!

Well, now that the rain has stopped, it’s time to head back outside being busy as the bees…

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A Dandy Time!

dandy plantDandelions are the most versatile spring plant that grows everywhere you don’t want them- lawns and gardens. We have an expansive crop this year at Starseed, so why not put them in our bellies? Dandelions arrive in full force just in time for spring cleansing and detoxing after a long winter of hearty foods. I know I’m not the only one who has indulged in rich creamy soups, thick cuts of bacon, and sweet treats.

The greens are best steamed before the flowers bud out because they are less bitter. Chewing on the stems of the flowers like gum cleanses the digestive tract. The roots are liver and gall bladder tonics. The whole plant is a natural diuretic but unlike pharmaceutical diuretics, it does not force your body to lose potassium. Dandelions are the best spring additives to meals and they are very plentiful.

dandy doneOur cook here has found a special way to mask the bitter flowers. Despite the contradictory ingredients, dandelion flower fritters are outstanding!

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dandy timeShe uses:

Pamela’s gluten free pancake mix

Milk

Fresh Thyme

Salt

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My motto as of late: “You got to retox if you want to detox!”

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The Team at Starseed

completing HH togetherIt is hard to comprehend how much has happened in only month since moving to Starseed. Scrolling through my photos to review some of the highlights makes me wonder how I came to where I am with all these wonderful people. This is it, folks-living proof that we are completely capable of manifesting our dreams.

seedling in cold frameThe team at Starseed is co-creating a new world together based on love and community. We are guided by the wisdom of Nature’s intelligence. We come with pitchforks and wheelbarrows full of compost. We demand respect for all people, plants, and animals. We are gaining momentum as we learn life skills such as foraging for wild edibles, building a hoop house, inoculating logs with shiitake mushrooms, and sowing vegetable and herb seeds, which will nourish our bodies.

sowing peasWe share the common passion for delicious locally produced food prepared with care. Wood fired pizza is always welcome after working outside all day.

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On brush burning days we take it to a whole other level and get really creative: skillet butter fried ramps (wild onions), grilled veggies, and baked potatoes.

fire cookinThe team at Starseed is highly capable, hard working, creative, generous, curious, hilarious, humble, ambitious, grounded, and knowledgeable. We all offer unique gifts and talents.

allie fiddlehead goddess
Allie is the Queen Cooking Bee. She’ll whip something up out of nothing and she sure knows how to put that Vitamix to good use.

blake hara breathing kindling

Blake is the Sorcerer of Breath-Work. No matter how much resistance you bring to morning meeting, he’ll calm your mind and prepare you for a gratitude circle after three deep exhales accompanied by horse lips.

jo builderJoseph is the Master Builder. Before you can say, “Please, pass me the drill,” he already has constructed a new structure for the farm.

lucy logsLucy is the Project Confidant. She approaches even the most daunting tasks with a calm attitude that brings me back down to Earth from my overwhelmed state after reviewing my ever-growing “To Do” list.

aravindas quicheAravinda is the Clairvoyant Visionary. She grew up on the land with her Mother, Satyena, and two sisters.

Satyena is the Matriarch of Starseed. She purchased the land 26 years ago with the intention of creating a healing sanctuary. Satyena embodies what it means to lead with an open heart.satyena

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Landing at Starseed Sanctuary

DSCN3477“Fixed Earth Taurus encourages us to plant our crops, fertilize new shoots, and make it real. Our plans take form and grow roots. We’re gifted and challenged to honor Spirit imbued in the material world.” — Heather Roan Robbins

DSCN3468I’ve finally landed after what feels like a lifetime of traveling. The power of manifestation has brought my current coordinates to Starseed Sanctuary in the Northern Berkshires where I am living and working as the farm manager/groundskeeper/land steward. I live in a newly built tiny house on wheels also known as a Tumbleweed. There is a small wood stove, composting toilet, shower, electricity, propane cook stove, and a ladder leading to the loft where I sleep. What more could a young woman want?

blog IMG_7922blog IMG_7925My dear friend and co-land steward, Blake and I spend our days starting seedlings by the biodynamic calendar, chopping kindling, researching yurts, writing grants, ordering supplies, preparing mushroom logs, looking at tractors, spring cleaning, and discussing our dream of building a spiritual farming community together.

It’s all happening so fast, I often say to myself, “This is too good to be true.” Instead, I fill my heart with gratitude, take a deep breadth, and bask in how I feel deeply in alignment with why I’m here on Earth.

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I am especially grateful to the Ananda family for inviting us to join their Sanctuary and home in hope of co-creating community and sustainable farming systems.

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Goodbye Winter Blues, Hello Baby Goats!

DSCN3444I’m back out here in Monterey for the busy time of kidding season at the goat farm. I feel grateful to have the time and space to set up my life so I can spend it where my heart desires. What better way to welcome in this spring than watching goats use their innate intelligence and natural instincts while giving birth?

The excitement and excessive exertion of energy during kidding season creates an abrupt transition from winter to spring because I am forced out of my head and into the rhythms of nature. It has been a long and reflective winter. Like the baby goat inside its mother’s womb, I’m not quit sure if I’m ready to leave the warmth and comfort, but I have no choice. Soon enough, I will have to the leave the chair next to the wood stove and venture out into the cold damp air of late March.

DSCN3382The ground is soggy beneath my muck boots. Mud season is inevitable as the snow melts away. The air tastes sweet like the sap running through the trees. I fill my lungs to capacity while tromping through the woods following the tracks of turkey, deer, and coyote. Rivers and streams swell. Robins and red wing blackbirds make their first appearances back from the South.  Seventy baby goats to feed three times a day. Warm slow cooked meaty soups to look forward to after mucking the barn.

DSCN3408Baby goats offer endless entertainment and pure delight as we transition to Spring- the season of renewal, cleansing, and hope.

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Honoring the Women in our Lives

DSCN3367For the first 20 years of my life, International Women’s Day passed by without any acknowledgment. As an internationally recognized holiday to honor the women in our lives, the U.S. sheds far less light on this day than most other countries. I remember on March 8, 2011, I was walking out of a seafood restaurant on the coast of Chile with a friend and the waiter handed each of us a white rose. He smiled, bowed his head slightly, and thanked us.

“What was that about?” I asked my Chilean friend.

“It’s International Women’s Day!” she replied so enthusiastically I almost felt embarrassed for not knowing such an important date. As we walked through the streets, I began to notice we were not the only women carrying roses. While looking back on how grateful I was to be acknowledged on that day for my contributions as a woman to society, some women take the tradition of receiving flowers one step further by saying, “Don’t give me roses, give me respect!” I love to receive flowers, but respect, yes, respect is so much more permanent than a cut-flower that lasts three days in a vase.

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Seafood dishes are traditional International Women’s Day fare

In honor of International Women’s Day, Women’s History Month, and the year 2013 which is the year of the female water snake, I have recommitted myself to the women’s liberation movement. I hosted a women’s dinner party last week, attended lectures by Vandana Shiva and Starhawk, and danced the night away with girlfriends I grew up with. Building a strong  and diverse community of women where we can hold sacred spaces to share our thoughts, dreams, hopes (and despair!) for the future is crucial for the women’s liberation movement.

The water snake of 2013 paves the path of rebirth, new beginnings and transformation as she sheds her skin. I feel encouraged  to let go of what keeps me separate from women, especially in the past, so we can empower one another to be leaders of the women’s liberation movement.

Love and blessings to all the women of the world- we are so brave!

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