A large red tailed hawk sat on a branch above me. We were both fishing along a wide river. I reeled in a small fish. I was so hungry that I ate it in less than a minute still feeling dissatisfied afterward. Then, the hawk dove into the river and caught an enormous salmon three times its size.
“This is what you ought to be going after,” she told me. “The big fish.”
The red tailed hawk’s statement makes me wonder how many times I just settle for things the way they are rather that going for what I really want. What would happen if I went for the big kahuna?
The question, “What do I want?” has been popping up every day. Honestly, this question scares me. What if I don’t actually get what I want? I don’t want to feel the disappointment, so I’d rather stay small and accept things as they are. Or, what if I get what I want and then don’t feel satisfied?
The red tailed hawk delivered her fresh caught salmon directly to me.
“Here you go, try a taste of the big fish.”
My mouth watered. I indulged voraciously. I shouted out in such glory you would have thought this had been my first meal in days. The flesh was juicy, tender, and perfectly cooked (not sure how the hawk did this, but hey, it’s a dream!)
The red tailed hawk taught me not to settle with the small fish. Now, I’ll carefully take them off my hook, and throw them back into the river. I’m willing to be patient and go after the big kahuna.
This dream appeared straightforward, yet has complex meanings that may take months to understand. The meaning I took away when I first woke up was completely different than what I wrote here.
I saw the red tailed hawk representing our abundant community of people, plants, and animals. When she offered me the salmon, I felt moved because she was telling me to trust in the surrounding abundance. Let go of the fears of scarcity. Don’t put so much pressure on yourself about money and your business being financially sustainable in the first year. Relax. Be patient. Everything we truly need will show up. It takes a lot of trust, but I know it is worth it.
The dream ended by me offering what was left of the salmon to the red tailed hawk. I whistled but she did not come back. Maybe she was not hungry. Maybe she caught the salmon as a gift to me. So, I detached and let the seagulls and other small birds have at it.
After receiving such an amazing gift, I wanted to offer what I could not finish rather than let it go to waste. I had enough. My belly was full. I felt grateful to the hawk and now wanted to share the abundance with others. Nature understands this concept. Nothing is waste. Everything gets recycled, or re-gifted because an organism somewhere needs it.
As I continue to ask myself, “what do I want?” I intend to balance this inquiry with, “what can I give?” I believe when we all have enough, we will be more inspired to give. That is my hope.
Thank you, red tailed hawk for being my teacher and power animal.
I recommend reading Charles Eisenstein’s book, “Sacred Economics,” where he explores gift economy rather eloquently.